Tuesday, May 11, 2010

summer.

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it's here. finally. and the deep breath i feel like i've been waiting to take hasn't yet come. but in the meantime, until i can breathe it all in deep, my mind has wandered. and while i've spent my quiet nights alone reading, listening, trying to find the pattern in the mash of words that constantly fill my thoughts, i've realized that i'm in a bit of an inspirational desert.

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writing ebbs & flows. i like to call it the perpetual roller coaster--one i always seem to be riding but can never fully grasp a pattern in its motion. and so i've decided to take it as it comes, to embrace the desert. things might look different around here for while (oh who am i kidding....are they ever the same?)...but i'll come back eventually with more words, more sharing, more heart-feelings from the bodies & spirits of those i'm blessed to encounter. in the meantime, i've made it a goal to share more non-medicine-related stories. more about us. i feel like i've been so focused on documenting my thoughts that i've forgotten to document our lives.

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so onto the summer. it is finally here. i'm back on the east coast (as of 3 weeks ago), soaking in the humidity & simply waiting for jon to come home (we are so SO close!). i finished rotations last thursday (i was privvy to 4-day work weeks during my [last & final] dermatology rotation--good planning on my part). i've gotten necessary appointments, grocery shopping, & what-can-i-make-from-nothing-crafts out of the way.

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and now God teaches me patience.

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{this might be the ugliest "welcome home" sign EVER. not even kidding.}

it isn't in my nature (thankyouverymuch mom) to sit & be still. i'm a busy-body (usually, unless it is 5am in which case i'm a sleepy crabby body). and although i cherish my quiet time in my own space, spending ALL DAY in the quiet of my own space is a challenge for me. my residency program has been an answer to prayer & is allowing me to start two months late & arrive with jon. their graciousness will allow jon & i to (for the first time!) be married, live together under the same roof, & get to know each other again after 12-months of living apart & before the craziness of residency begins. i still will have a (hopefully) busy schedule: my prayer is to fill my mornings with studying & projects (yup, i still have a secret that can't be shared yet!...no, i'm not preggo) & my afternoons with photoshoots. jon gets my evenings.

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i'm getting little whispers from UpThere that this summer will be full of lessons--ones that God has been patiently waiting for the last four years of busy-ness to teach me. lessons about money management, grocery shopping (could it be?!), efficiency, blessings, sleep, morning-person-ness (ahh!), studying, family, marriage, & learning to love medicine all over again.

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quite frankly, i'm worn out. my rotations over the past 2 years have been far from rigorous--& most of that was intentional. after two solid years of studying & an emotional rocket-coaster (much more intense than a roller coaster, i assure you). i'm slowly discovering the kind of medicine i want to practice, the type of patients i love to spend my days with, & the environment in which i feel that i can (& will) thrive as a physician. and as time goes on, God keeps whispering that my "ideal" world of wifely-hood, mother-hood, & physician-hood can in fact become a reality...with intention & the blessing of His plan.

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so here i am. ready to take on the summer. ready to have jon home & settled. ready to have a couch (instead of one very loved recliner & a borrowed card table) & the rest of our stuff semi-unpacked. and ready to take a deep breath...

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here's to you, summer. i think we'll make a good team.

3 comments:

brianaandtim said...

I enjoy your reading list. Three Cups of Tea is a good read. And I have a secret crush on the Duggar Family too - let me know how their book goes!

Congrats on being done! (DONE!!!!) and enjoy a wonderful summer. As much as I wasn't looking for time off, I too have learned many too valuable lessons about what I treasure in life and just who I'm meant to be.

Thanks for always sharing! <3 BL

joyfuliving said...

LOVED this post, j'! :)

here's to taking it all in...

Richella said...

I'm sitting here, writing this comment, absolutely amazed.

Why? Because you left a comment for me today at Imparting Grace. And you told me it reminded me of one of Jon Acuff's posts at SCL.

Why am I amazed? First of all, because I had not already read that posts of Jon's. I clicked on your link and read it, you can be sure.

But what makes this really special to me is that Jon Acuff's parents are two of my dearest friends in the world. Seriously. You know when Jon makes reference to his mom? He's talking about one of my best friends. So for you to make reference to his post is just. . . wow. Thank you.

And it's really nice to meet you. You are a beautiful girl, and obviously a beautiful soul. I hope your summer is a wonderful one. God bless you.

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