the other half of me.

God brings death and God brings life,

brings down to the grave and raises up.

God brings poverty and God brings wealth;

he lowers, he also lifts up.

He puts poor people on their feet again;

he rekindles burned-out lives with fresh hope,

Restoring dignity and respect to their lives—

a place in the sun!

For the very structures of earth are God's;

he has laid out his operations on a firm foundation.

He protectively cares for his faithful friends, step by step,

but leaves the wicked to stumble in the dark.

No one makes it in this life by sheer muscle!

God's enemies will be blasted out of the sky,

crashed in a heap and burned.

God will set things right all over the earth,

he'll give strength to his king,

he'll set his anointed on top of the world!

-1 Samuel 2:6-10

i'm feeling today. feeling that i miss him. feeling that this year has gone by so fast--and so slow. feeling that life is short, i am human, and love is deep. i'm feeling today that the future is uncertain; but that is how it is supposed to be. feeling frustrated with myself & a bit discouraged about my situation.

but i'm feeling something else, too.

i'm feeling God working. finally. as if He had stopped for a coffee break. i'm counting my blessings, instead of paying more attention to my have-nots. and i'm ever-so-slowly working on trusting.

so today i'm feeling. so many things. love. life. breath. cold. uncertainty. frustration. admiration. distraction.

and hope.